Thursday, October 7, 2010
No longer will you read this
No longer will you care if jiayu blogs anything here
No longer will you respond to one-word posts
No longer do you remember any good about me
No longer will you be here.
i sang at 9:11 PM
Monday, July 12, 2010
ANY FRIENDS WHO KNOWS OF PPL WHO WANTS TO BUY A STUDENT VIOLIN?!?!?! Email or fb me k!!!!!! Thankssss! :D
i sang at 7:01 AM
Sunday, July 4, 2010
And so I thought I'd be strong enough to go to US. Not until I found out today that my beloved Popo will have a knee cap replacement surgery in sept. WHICH IS AFTER I GO TO US! :( x infinite
And now at 3:53am I look through pictures of Popo and me and I start sobbing. :( And on the variety show on Taiwan channel just now where the singer started singing his song about his Ahma and I sobbed again. :(
What's most emo is, Popo now needs walking support. The U-shaped kind that people in very bad walking state needs to use. Not the stick kind. *Too emo to type and bawls*
Today, while having lunch at gonggong popo's house, it amazed me how just by one look my grandparents, who took care of me since I was born till I was 6, could tell I can't finish my food. It wasn't very obvious. I just ate very slowly that's all. And when we were about to go home, I hugged popo, as usual, and said bye to gonggong. But I felt bad that I didn't hug him. And so I did. :) And he leaned his face against my head. *Emo max now*
I know by God's grace popo's operation will be a smooth one. I'm just very sad cos I won't be ere to accompany her through it. And I also thank God that besides their really bad hearing, gonggong and waipo are generally healthy. :)
And I'm gonna miss many more ppl too. But not now ok! Will drown in my emo-ness before I even fly. :( Goodnight!
i sang at 1:03 PM
Saturday, July 3, 2010
It's amazing how I did not receive a single msg today from any soul yet am not emo-ing like I usually would.
It's either:
1. I'm really stronger than you ever thought I was.
Or
2. It's going downhill.
Probably doesn't affect you much. You can live a normal life with or without me anyway. You're a good influence cos I'm getting the hang of it as well. :)
Feel your conscience and ask yourself what is it now. I feel mine and know I haven't been treating you badly ever since the big drama.
And you?
i sang at 11:31 AM
Thursday, July 1, 2010
I am here agaiiiinnnnn!
Haha! Well, just feel like typing some heart-felt stuff...
I guess going to US won't be a big problem. Through these 2 days, I confirmed myself that I can be strong minded and independent if I really want to. By God's grace and with His strength also I'm sure. =)
That aside... Let us all take some time off and wonder about these -
Do we love and care about our loved ones and expect nothing in return?
Do we love them all the same despite their occasional ridiculousness?
Do we love them even if we see them every sec or min or hour or day or week or month or year?
Do we love them even after it seems like there's nothing else in the relationship?
Is it sweet or utterly ridiculous that we do certain things that are against what we usually would do, but would make our loved ones so happy he/she smiles to sleep?
Do we love them less as time goes by and the relationship becomes too mundane?
Do we take less and less effort to keep the relationship going?
Do we get more and more impatient with the one we love?
Do we take our loved ones for granted?
Do we put our ego and wants on top of loving him/her?
Haha. =) That aside, it's really great meeting up with old friends recently. Many have been asking to meet up because they got to know that I'm flying in 1 and a half month's time to US to further my studies. Guys, you have no idea how happy I feel whenever you all msg to ask about it and suggest meeting up soon before I fly k! Especially those whom I haven't seen in a really long time! =D
Pls don't think that I'm super rich and my family can soooo afford for me to go. It's really quite a strain on my parents, but I have no choice but to go because it's just not enough here. Thank God for scholarship FROM US (not here. -.-) which more or less helps to lessen the load. =)
Of cos, all these would be impossible without Mr Toh. =) The recent Europe trip too. I'm really blessed to be someone who, before the age of 20, between ages 16-19, got to travel to Europe with paid tour fee. Don't wanna say much here. =)
So, yup! I'll probably come by again some day. Haha.
Goodnight!
i sang at 8:52 AM
